All these while

A bit dusty in here after not blogging for sometime. To tell you the truth, I was lazy! I don't give a damn about it!

Happening now:

• I'm a dog handler in the army.
• I handle a sniffer dog.
  
• I love dogs now.
• I have my new best friend,chico, who I look after in camp.
• Booking back to camp later after such a long weekend, which I dread because I'm not looking forward to this week or next week or any other week.
• It sucks when I try to get over things and people just keep reminding you of the past. It dosen't really help when 1 has such limited time to one self but I stay strong and try to forget about it.
• I pretty much hate my workplace now because I hate the management of things there and the fucker who mange things there.Which I don't understand why is he there and put on earth for.All I know is for FUCK! But I try my best to keep sane and carry on my day as normal as I can with the help of my girl and friends.Thank you, guys.

Happened:

• Turned 22. Can't wait to turn 23 because that's the year I finish doing my time for these people!
• 3 years on and still looking good and gettting better each time.
  
• Not much as before.HAHA!

Future:

• Hope I blog more.Haha! Yeah right!
• I want to be happy.
• I want people around me to be happy.

I hope it gives you hell!

Life's a bitch and its starting to feel a pain in the ass!

Thats all I have to say.

Back

Its been awhile since I blog. Auds back from her boston trip. I'm happy thats she's back. She's so much more beautiful, confident and happy. I'm happy for her. It got me awhile to adjust to her new life. haha. Well, things are going alright and I'm happy. I have 3 more weeks left on pulau tekong before I POP. I can't wait.

The boston trip and the army was a good thing in the relationship because it made us reliase how much we loved each other and how much we wanted to be together. Everytime when I book out and I see her waiting for me, I feel happy and butterflies in my stomach. All I want to do, is just to make her happy and be strong for her. So that she can always count on me when the tough gets going.

Auds, I love you!

Your Arms Feel Like Home

I think I walked to close to love and now I'm falling in
I felt so many things this weary soul can’t take
Maybe you just caught me by surprise
The first time I looked into your eyes...

There’s a life inside of me that I can feel again
It’s the only thing that takes me where I've never been
I don’t care if I lost everything that I have known
It don’t matter where I lay my head tonight your arms feel like home...feel like home...

This life ain't the fairy tale we both thought it would be
I can see your smiling face as its staring back at me
I know we both see these changes now...
I know we both understand somehow...

There’s a life inside of me that I can feel again
It’s the only thing that takes me where I've never been
I don’t care if I lost everything that I have known
It don’t matter where I lay my head tonight your arms feel like home...they feel like home to me... (Just hold onto me)
There’s a life inside of me that I can feel again
It’s the only thing that takes me where I've never been
I don’t care if I lost everything that I have known
It don’t matter where I lay my head tonight your arms feel like home... feel like home...they feel like home

Another week to go.......

Soon I'll be reaching a month old solider. I've adapted to the army life so far.Still got areas to work on it. I've lost some weight, worked out some muscle and now I'm in a best shape of my life. I cloudn't have done it without the support of auds,my friends,my family and some of my army buddies. Training each day is getting more tough and tiring but is good as it keeps me busy and fit. Though of course during the day, I'll be just thinking of auds. She just my motivation. Another week more and she'll be back here. Hope this week past extremely fast but also I hope that I'll have an earlier book out day on the week she comes back, so I could spent some time with her before I book in and than its off for my field camp which also kind of suck a bit because I was looking forward to spending that weekend with her but not to worry there will always be other weekends.

Didn't talk to her much these few days.Hope you're doing fine. I'll see you soon.


this is for you auds, haha!

Something about you

I don’t know where to begin
I don’t know how to get out there to see you
I don’t know where to dig in.
I don’t know how to get in there¡­to feel you

It’s been to long and I’m about to be in time for me
It’s been to long and I’m in time

Baby there’s something about you that
I can hold on to
I’m going to hold on to that
Baby there’s something about you that
I can hold on to
I’m going to hold on to that

I never thought I would win
I never thought much about that.
(it’s been a long time coming)
I never stopped to begin
Thinking about the process.
(it’s been a long time coming)

It’s been to long and I’m about to be in time for me
It’s been to long and I’m in time

Baby there’s something about you that
I can hold on to
I’m going to hold on to that
Baby there’s something about you that
I can hold on to
I’m going to hold on to that

I don’t know where to begin
I don’t know how to get out there to see you

Baby there’s something about you that
I can hold on to
I’m going to hold on to that
Baby there’s something about you that
I can hold on to
I’m going to hold on to that

It’s been a long time coming
I’m going to hold on to that

Sunday....

Got up early and went for 645 mass. Kept thinking of audrey. Reliase that I won't be seeing her later on the day. Reliase how much I miss her and would have done anything just to be next to her. It made me a bit sad, but I tried to keep a positive mind set and stay strong. That she'll be coming back soon and time will past fast. I hope it does. Anyway, I hope I'll be able to see her online and talk to her for awhile. Time now to stay focus on things. Stay strong.

Booking in later on at night. So I ought go prepare my stuff and get somethings done.

To audrey, hope you're enjoying yourself. Stay strong.I'm proud of you. Pray, whenever you feel lonely,sad,worried,fear and scared and he'll be there next to you watching over you,hearing your troubles and guiding you.Take care of yourself.

Love you,girl.