I hope it gives you hell!

Life's a bitch and its starting to feel a pain in the ass!

Thats all I have to say.

Back

Its been awhile since I blog. Auds back from her boston trip. I'm happy thats she's back. She's so much more beautiful, confident and happy. I'm happy for her. It got me awhile to adjust to her new life. haha. Well, things are going alright and I'm happy. I have 3 more weeks left on pulau tekong before I POP. I can't wait.

The boston trip and the army was a good thing in the relationship because it made us reliase how much we loved each other and how much we wanted to be together. Everytime when I book out and I see her waiting for me, I feel happy and butterflies in my stomach. All I want to do, is just to make her happy and be strong for her. So that she can always count on me when the tough gets going.

Auds, I love you!

Your Arms Feel Like Home

I think I walked to close to love and now I'm falling in
I felt so many things this weary soul can’t take
Maybe you just caught me by surprise
The first time I looked into your eyes...

There’s a life inside of me that I can feel again
It’s the only thing that takes me where I've never been
I don’t care if I lost everything that I have known
It don’t matter where I lay my head tonight your arms feel like home...feel like home...

This life ain't the fairy tale we both thought it would be
I can see your smiling face as its staring back at me
I know we both see these changes now...
I know we both understand somehow...

There’s a life inside of me that I can feel again
It’s the only thing that takes me where I've never been
I don’t care if I lost everything that I have known
It don’t matter where I lay my head tonight your arms feel like home...they feel like home to me... (Just hold onto me)
There’s a life inside of me that I can feel again
It’s the only thing that takes me where I've never been
I don’t care if I lost everything that I have known
It don’t matter where I lay my head tonight your arms feel like home... feel like home...they feel like home

Another week to go.......

Soon I'll be reaching a month old solider. I've adapted to the army life so far.Still got areas to work on it. I've lost some weight, worked out some muscle and now I'm in a best shape of my life. I cloudn't have done it without the support of auds,my friends,my family and some of my army buddies. Training each day is getting more tough and tiring but is good as it keeps me busy and fit. Though of course during the day, I'll be just thinking of auds. She just my motivation. Another week more and she'll be back here. Hope this week past extremely fast but also I hope that I'll have an earlier book out day on the week she comes back, so I could spent some time with her before I book in and than its off for my field camp which also kind of suck a bit because I was looking forward to spending that weekend with her but not to worry there will always be other weekends.

Didn't talk to her much these few days.Hope you're doing fine. I'll see you soon.


this is for you auds, haha!

Something about you

I don’t know where to begin
I don’t know how to get out there to see you
I don’t know where to dig in.
I don’t know how to get in there¡­to feel you

It’s been to long and I’m about to be in time for me
It’s been to long and I’m in time

Baby there’s something about you that
I can hold on to
I’m going to hold on to that
Baby there’s something about you that
I can hold on to
I’m going to hold on to that

I never thought I would win
I never thought much about that.
(it’s been a long time coming)
I never stopped to begin
Thinking about the process.
(it’s been a long time coming)

It’s been to long and I’m about to be in time for me
It’s been to long and I’m in time

Baby there’s something about you that
I can hold on to
I’m going to hold on to that
Baby there’s something about you that
I can hold on to
I’m going to hold on to that

I don’t know where to begin
I don’t know how to get out there to see you

Baby there’s something about you that
I can hold on to
I’m going to hold on to that
Baby there’s something about you that
I can hold on to
I’m going to hold on to that

It’s been a long time coming
I’m going to hold on to that

Sunday....

Got up early and went for 645 mass. Kept thinking of audrey. Reliase that I won't be seeing her later on the day. Reliase how much I miss her and would have done anything just to be next to her. It made me a bit sad, but I tried to keep a positive mind set and stay strong. That she'll be coming back soon and time will past fast. I hope it does. Anyway, I hope I'll be able to see her online and talk to her for awhile. Time now to stay focus on things. Stay strong.

Booking in later on at night. So I ought go prepare my stuff and get somethings done.

To audrey, hope you're enjoying yourself. Stay strong.I'm proud of you. Pray, whenever you feel lonely,sad,worried,fear and scared and he'll be there next to you watching over you,hearing your troubles and guiding you.Take care of yourself.

Love you,girl.

Hanging By The Moment

desperate for changing
starving for truth
closer to where I started
chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

forgetting all I'm lacking
completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
you take all of me now

I'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
and I don't know what I'm diving into
just hanging by a moment here with you

there's nothing else to lose
there's nothing else to find
there's nothing in the world
that could change my mind
there is nothing else
there is nothing else
there is nothing else

desperate for changing
starving for truth
closer to where I started
chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
and I don't know what I'm diving intoPublish Post
just hanging by a moment here with you
just hanging by a moment
hanging by a moment
hanging by a moment
hanging by a moment here with you

Learned and Discoverd

My army life has thought me somethings on life.
1. How much I really miss audrey and all the love.
2.Learned how to really express my emotions.
3.Learned new things from people.
4.Streghting my mental strength.
5.Made new friends.
6. Having a new hair look. haha.

The first few days of army was hard cause I was trying to adjust to my new style of life. It was even harder cause I didn't have my girl around. None the less, I tried to think positve. I have my best friends out there who I can turn too.I kept on msging audrey and I slowly warm up to the people in my bunk.Each morning I wake up, all I could ever think was audrey.So she's been my motivation for the pass 2 week and will be for the rest of my life. Audrey, have a good trip, come back safe and sound and I'll be waiting for you here.Be strong,girl.

Lonely People

This is for all the lonely people
Thinking that life has passed them by
Dont give up until you drink from the silver cup
And ride that highway in the sky

This is for all the single people
Thinking that love has left them dry
Dont give up until you drink from the silver cup
You never know until you try

Well, Im on my way
Yes, Im back to stay
Well, Im on my way back home (hit it)

This is for all the lonely people
Thinking that life has passed them by
Dont give up until you drink from the silver cup
And never take you down or never give you up
You never know until you try

Speedway

I get so nervous Im shaking
Gets so I got no pride at all
Gets so bad but I just keep coming back for more
Guess I just get off on that stuff

Thinkin about taking some time
Thinkin about leaving soon

I got some things I cant tell anyone
Got some things I just cant say
Theyre the kind of things no one knows about
I just need somebody to talk to me

Im thinkin about leaving tomorrow
Im thinkin about being on my own
Think I been wasting my time
Im thinkin about getting out
Im thinkin about getting out

In all this time, the bottom lines
You dont know how much I feel
You say you see
But I dont agree
Dont know, dont know how I feel

Just trying to get myself some gravity
Youre just trying to get me to stay
Sometimes I sit here looking down upon los angeles
Sometimes Im floating away

Im thinkin about breaking myself
Im thinkin about getting back home
I think I been waiting for way too long
Thinkin bout getting out
Thinkin bout getting out
Thinkin bout getting out

Jumper

Found this, quite cool.

Song lyrics | Jumper lyrics

Shiver

This how i feel now.

So I look in your direction
But you pay me no attention, do you?
I know you don't listen to me
'Cos you say you see straight through me, don't you?

on and on
From the moment I wake, to the moment I sleep
I'll be there by your side; just you try and stop me
I'll be waiting in line, just to see if you care

Oh…
Did you want me to change?
Well I'd change for good
And I want you to know that you'll always get your way
I wanted to say…

Don't you shiver
Shiver
Sing it loud and clear
I'll always be waiting for you

So you know how much I need you
But you never even see me, do you?
And is this my final chance of getting you

And on and on
From the moment I wake, to the moment I sleep
I'll be there by your side; just you try and stop me
I'll be waiting in line, just to see if you care

Oh…
Did you want me to change?
Well I'd change for good
And I want you to know that you'll always get your way
I wanted to say…

Don't you shiver
Don't you shiver
Sing it loud and clear
I'll always be waiting for you

Yeah I'll always be waiting for you
Yeah I'll always be waiting for you
Yeah I'll always be waiting for you, for you
I will always be waiting…

And it's you I see but you don't see me
And it's you I hear so loud and so clear
I sing it loud and clear
And I'll always be waiting for you

So I look in your direction
But you pay me no attention
And you know how much I need you
But you never even see me

New Look

Tired of the old look. So i tried something new. Did some changes here and there. Hope you readers like it. If you don't like it, that's just too bad!

12 years.....

For 12 years, I've serve at the altar as an altar boy. I've learnt what the older boys have taught me, I've taught the younger boys what I've learnt, I've led a group of boys and the best of all led a soceity of boys.To built the soceity up all over agian was the best thing I ever did. I've sacrifce all of my time just for the boys so that they could have thier best time in being an altar boy . I've taken lots of crap from people who just can't belive that something good is happening and they wanted it so that they could get the fame and glory. Since they came, they destroy it all but in thier mind they think they are doing a great job but its just all about themselves. Been insulted, shout at, humilated, been called a liar, power hungry and all sorts of names, all of these from grown up people to just a boy. Makes me wonder how mature they were. Even my own parents wouldn't do this to me!

Been told not to serve a mass cause i didn't come for training and to have a pure heart. I told them to let the other boys who didn't come for training to serve and I won't. That they wouldn't allow. Sad. Best of all, been told I can't serve anymore cause I'm too old. Stupidest thing I ever heard from a priest! Makes me wonder weather he's really a priest. I only got 2 words for this paragraph. F UP!

I hope and pray that those boys after my generation may be able to keep those traditions and maybe built it up again as it once was.I had the best time of my life being an altar boy. Never regreted it. Now I'm just looking forward for the next best time of my life, being in the army.



Johnny and any PSG reading this, you can all f off from my blog! Yeah, you read it right. F Off!
*they = PSG(Parents Support Group)

I got my certificate

Yay! I've accompished my higher nitec. Got really good results. I'm happy.

Well, I'm still bumming around. I need to do something useful with this time. I'm too lazy to work my ass for $. I just feel like relaxing before I loose all of my civilian rights. hehe.

Done with school for now

Its been awhile since i been here.

Updates:
I'm done with school for now. Just waiting around to get enlisted to the army and my exam results. I hope they come out good grades.

What i'm doing for now:
Bumming now and than. I do give tuition so at least I have some income of own. I might do some days of work if its good $ and intresting.

In the near future:
I want to further my studies. So once I'm done with the army(sigh), I'll go and apply for a diploma course at a polytechnic. I hope I'll be able to do it than I could go get a real good job or the job of my dream.

21

I turned 21 yesterday. For 21 years of my life, I've learnt a lot and experince a lot. I've been up and I've been down. I've shared all these moments with my friends and loved ones. Now, I'm ready to face new challenges, do something adventurous and share all of my joy with people. I hope everything will be a smooth sailing ahead and I like to say thank you to my parents and friends for everything they have done for me and of course to my girl, A BIG THANK YOU for being by my side. I shall end this post with this song:

Long Weekend

Today i start my long weekend. Every friday from now, i have no class! WooHoo! Its only for 3 weeks before i graduate but who cares.Yeah!

FYP

In my 2nd year at ITE, each group had to do a final year project. So my project group decided to come out with the auto bus flagger. This prototype is suppose to help the commuters in flagging for the bus at anytime of the day, during heavy downpour and at night. It also caters to the elderly, the blind and the handicap. With a simple press of the button, the beacon, the bus number and stop sign will be on at once together. Followed by the hand flagging and the bus will stop at the bus stop.

The Auto Bus Flagger

The project group and project supervisor

This girl

There is a girl whose love never ends.
There is a girl whose cooking not only fill the stomach but fills the heart.
There is a girl whose smiles never fail to bright up my life.
There is a girl whose is there always by my side.
She may have a short temper, high expectations and have moods that change in a blink of the eye.
But it is her imperfections that makes her unique..
Thats why I'm so in love with you today and will stand by your side.

An Altar Server

Being an altar server for almost 12 years, is a big part of my life. The servers are the ones that i grew up with and who have thought me so much things in life. They were always there when i needed them. I thank them for what I am today.

Now, to look at the altar to see them serve, i feel sad. Sad because a once strong fortress has now been crumbled and what is left is a pile of stones. Of course I do blame the people for making it crumble but I always hope that one day it will be back as it was. I hope the boys who are in now, do stay and serve because you'll can bring it back. Never mind who is running it and the problems that surrounds it, but know that you are here because you want to serve.

I will always be here for you guys....

The New Year

Wishing everyone a happy new year and all the best!

Wonder what lies ahead of the year. Good or bad, nobody knows but there's one thing everyone should know is to live your life as each day comes and goes.